Honesty and the written word...

Good evening friends...

I don't know what it is about me - but lately I've been wanting to write on here more then in my own journal. I've also grown to realize that I'm becoming one who isn't afraid of honesty - even though it hasn't always been that way. I've realized that I'm one who can easily "bear my soul" when it comes to the written word.

Hmm....

I'm writing this because I'm trying to become at peace with it. But, surprisingly, I'm wrestling with it quite a bit...

I'm not wrestling with the fact that I love the written word, or that I tend to give more then just a glimpse into my heart when it comes to the written word. In fact, I tend to lean more toward loving that honesty. Loving that I can "bear my soul" when it comes to the written word. There's something in me that willingly wants to do that and share honestly - rather then censor my feelings or be one to take a step back.

But, surprisingly, I'm wrestling with how others will respond towards my honesty. I'm wrestling with the fact that not everyone favors honesty like I do, and that not everyone will favor that in my writings here. I don't think I should be wondering if I should share all that I want to or not, but for some reason I am.

Let me be blunt and completely honest for a moment...

I think people are terrified of honesty. For some reason people tend to take a step back when honesty or a "bearing soul" is expected. And I don't know why (if you do, seriously, please tell me - I've wondered about that for years!) But that makes me question how people will respond to the fact that I'm not one about censored feelings or making something seem better or worse than it is (even though I used to be.) I'm full of honesty and I long for that in life and in written words. But, I'm wrestling with the fact that someone may not like my honesty shown here - that someone may be turned off or offended by it. That someone may think that I'm too honest, or that "more then just a glimpse into my heart" is just too much.

Sometimes I think people would rather tell you a lie then the truth. For some reason I think some people would rather tell you what they think you want to hear instead of the truth. For some reason I think people censor their feelings because of that. I used to do all of these things...


...Now, I never want to be someone who just "throws it all out there," who doesn't allow anything to be personal; but naturally, I love the written word and have grown to love honesty. And when those things come hand-in-hand... I'm happy. *grin*

Simply - it's who I am. But, for some reason this has been in my heart and on my mind. I'm trying to make peace with it, and the fact that everyone here may not like my honesty. It's been making me hold back on things that I want to write or have been writing... and some things haven't been shared because of that.

Please share friends, I'd really like your thoughts on this...

Good night friends...