Today has been one of those busy days. One of those days that I wish I could find the quiet and be still for only a moment; but that's kind of hard with nine people running around the house. Usually a simple friendly voice that I haven't heard for quite some time, a song I love, or a simple smile can comfort me. But even the sweet music of Bethany Dillon in my ears has left me frusterated and longing for the quiet that I haven't been able to find... inside or out. Today has been one of those days when I've only been able to see "home" for a moment; I haven't been "home" since 10am and finally stepped foot back into it at 7:00pm... yeah, today has been one of those days.
I woke up this morning longing to be near Jesus after a rough nights sleep and after the past night of struggling with Him. In the quiet of the house slightly before 7am I knew it'd be the only time to try and be quiet and still for that one moment. In the quietness of my room I wasn't able to be stilled or quieted, to be relaxed or calmed; but God did briefly breathe something into my heart that I've never heard. Something that I haven't been able to be still enough to completely grasp, but, yet, something that I feel I'm going to be holding onto for awhile... even while I'm struggling.
This morning I was reading through Zephaniah and a few chapters in Amos. Amos isn't normally a book I read, I've only read it 3 or 4 times in the past almost 2 years I've been following Jesus... but for some reason the heading: "A Lament and Call to Repentance" stood out at me.
Through reading chapter 5 very few words stuck out at me, I'm not sure why these words did, but God has been desperately trying to wrap them around my heart.
This is what the LORD says to the house of Isreal: "SEEK ME and LIVE."
"SEEK the LORD and LIVE."
"SEEK good, not evil, that you may LIVE." (5:4, 6a, 14a)
Those simple, short verses weren't placed together and put in big letters in God's Word... but somehow those were the words that stuck out at me, the words that God peirced me with, the words that God has been trying to wrap around my heart and somehow allow me to grasp.
"Seek Me and live. Seek the Lord and live. Seek good, that you may live."
Seek. Seek Me. Seek good. And Live. Seek Me and Live.
I sat in the quiet of my bedroom in the early morning putting those words together... seek Jesus and live. It may sound simple but those words have been hard for my heart to grasp. Somehow I've forgotten what it means to truly seek Jesus, what it means to truly be alive while doing so.
My heart hasn't been able to grasp those words during this busy, unstable, and unstilled day. My heart hasn't been able to grasp those words during the fast-past moments. But, I'm truly wanting to be still and allow my heart to grasp what God is trying to get across to me what it really means to seek Jesus and live; because somehow I've forgotten what it means to be still, to truly seek Jesus whole-heartedly and to live.
Seek Jesus and live...
Teresa
Saturday, June 9, 2007
Seek!
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3 comments:
..i totally agree with what you are saying here. i know for me it seems so simple on paper to just "seek him", but i know soo many times, i get caught up over and over again in the buisiness of my days, and i forget what it truly means to seek him with my whole heart. I am so inconsistant,messy, and fail so many times, and I am soo thankful, that i am loved by the one who is soo completly far from these things! thanks for being so real with what is on your heart friend!
:)smile
I really am glad you wrote this teresa!
love you much...
im talking to you on the phone.
T-resa. Great post! I know how you feel...wanting to but not being able to (or in my case just not) spending time with Christ. I loved the passage you put up "Seek Jesus and live". You're right...it is simple. But it's still mind blowing to me that it is so simple that this is the only way I can fully experience life...and eternal life. Keep seeking - keep living - keep being a follower of the Way.
-Ryan
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