Opposites Attract

Sometimes I think that the title of a blog is the best part and when I thought of this one I already got excited about writing. *grin*

I've always heard people say that "opposites attract" whenever someone is referring to people in a relationship. I've never really thought about it until this morning when I was having some time with Jesus. That may sound odd, but stay with me here.

This morning when I was reading, after reading so many paragraphs I caught myself praying over and over again. During one of the moments I paused and just sat in the early morning silence of my room. I wasn't able to put together the words that were bottling up inside of me; the words that I wanted to somehow put together and say outloud.

During the moments of silence with my Bible in my lap and the sun shining through the curtains; I caught myself silently praying. Incase you don't know, for me to pray silently is rare. I'm one who says everything outloud - even when it's only me in the room, but especially during my time with Jesus.

During that moment I suddenly began to realize just how different Jesus and I truly are. In that simple, quick moment I realized the differences between Him and I. He is faithful in everything He does, I'm unfaithful. He is pure, holy, and consistent; I am made of flesh and blood and so many times give up or give in too quickly and easily. He gives 100% in everything He says/does/allows - and even in my 'best' moments doubt, guilt, fear and pride linger.

Those thoughts passed through my mind within only minutes... and finally I said words outloud: "we are so different, I don't know why I'm finally realizing this. God, why do you still love me?"

After saying those words I felt a calming feeling come over me, one I haven't allowed myself to be still or quiet long enough to grasp lately.

Those were the thoughts that I left my room with this morning: The God Almighty is a God that can work in me even when doubt, guilt, fear, pride, and discouragement are in my very being. And that opposites truly do attract, God truly does want me even though I fall short, I'm unfaithful, made of flesh and blood, and even though my 'best' moments aren't the best.